Optimus Prime

Ok so today started out really early especially after my long, amazing night last night full of first. Anyway today started at 7 am and I am just coming down to the basement (my living area). We took Ben and Eli to the mall today to play in the play area. It was good. While Tami shopped we walked around and went and played more. I had another first today also. We ran into Carissa there (and people say Omaha is big... ha), so she got to meet the two boys and they loved it. They showed off and Ben told everyone about it all day.

The boys are pretty good. Ben listens to me very well until his mom or dad walks into the room. It is kind of flustering but pretty good since I usually take him by myself anyway. Eli is a bit of a challenge. He loves flying and high fives but he loves to get what he wants. He is not much of a talker and more of the screaming "NO" kind of kid. Today was good though he is pretty good too unless the parents walk in. I think it is so funny how many kids are like that. I have a cousin who is extremely naughty. He cusses, screams, kicks, hits, etc. I think the whole world was scared of how he was going to be in kindergarten. Well he ended up being one of the best in the class. He came home with stars everyday and was very respectful and helpful. He loves school. And he acts that way for me too. Maybe it is just me. ;)

Anyway I was actually going to talk a little about what God laid on my heart today and not just what me and the boys did today. Today me and Ben went to the basement to play so Eli wouldn't be disturbed during nap time. We decided to play trucks so I got out my Optimus Prime toy and wouldn't you know Ben has a Optimus Prime too. His is much bigger and harder to put together but it was totally sweet. So we played with them and I jokingly text Morgan with this picture and titled it, "A man after my own heart." It was a joke of course but isn't he the cutest thing, plus he likes Optimus. Anyway, so I was contemplating this basically the rest of the day and a lot of things came up. Yes I am hoping to find a future husband and from that come a family but then I was thinking about everything that I desired in a future man. Yes I have things that are for sure needed in my husband like a christian leader that is able to support me and the family (I am not just talking financially).

But God laid something completely opposite from all of this on my heart. Like I said before "A man after my own heart." Well really, I believe, hoping for the above and knowing that God has big plans in store for me, with that subject, when He feels right. But God really convicted me about the second part of that saying. "After my own heart" God is really the only person I can see this ever making since about. Oh, how He is so persistent and loving. He knows what is best for me and blesses me beyond belief. God is for sure the man after my heart and I absolutely love that. I may be moody back to Him or not receive His love at times but He is constantly fighting for me. He is the love of my life and I have no right to ask for more. Oh how He has captured my heart and possessed my body with His love.

God really cannot ever seem to stop amazing me and teaching me new things about Him and His love. Wow I love Him so much.

Praise God.

He is the Lover of all.

(Oh I wish I could put into words how I am actually feeling right now but I can't. God is Love. Even as I reread my words I realize they give nothing I am feeling right now justice.)