Fraternal Twins

Ok so the last post was so random and really didn't not make any sense to what I was actually really getting at. Well kind of but not. So after reading it again I am going to clarify:

1) I absolutely love listening to my friends. It is one of my favorite things in the world. I love when a friend will come to me and talk. It is like I actually matter for that second in someone else's life. I seriously don't know what I would do if my friends didn't come to me to talk.

2) Me not being able to talk to someone is totally my fault. It is not because of the lack of friends I have, or the fact that they won't listen. I know that most of my friends would love to listen just as much as I love listening to them. I have great friends and I honestly couldn't ask for more.

3) I am going to be ok. God always pulls me through and makes me learn and grow so much from my random moments.


Ok so for a new post all together.

So I have been going through this situation basically since the summer started. It has been completely uplifting, challenging, heart breaking, ridiculous, etc... So a brief about the situation. There is this person that totally reminds me of another person that I feel I failed in my life with. So because of this I think I am totally drawn to talk to them. Because with talking to them I am reminded of someone that I miss and failed at being a friend to. Everything about them really reminds me of the other. It is so weird. I honestly think that God did this on purpose. It is like my second chance. It is so amazing and I thank God so much for it. But at the same time I keep getting thrown back down about it all. I think I am failing all over again and I hate it. I don't know what to do to make it right and I think soon it is going to be too late. So basically I feel like I am losing the same person twice. I know I should stay positive and not give up but it is so hard. I am really trying everything I can think of. I even opened up a little to see if that would help. But to the point, I am really just going to ask for, all of you that reads this, prayers. The power of prayer is strong and I would love some on this subject. Just the strength to stay positive and to keep trying with the little time left, and also just for the other person as they are going to be going through some very hard stuff very soon.

Thank you all so much. God bless.

Praise the Lord.

God is persistent!